I swear i hate this feeling now.
i hatest most is what i know.
i dont trust yous guys,anymore.
i may have changed.
If you have only been hearing one side story.
i hate myself for trusting yous once.
i hate myself for bringing you with me.
i hate myself for letting you into my life.
All i could is to blame myself.
i'm sorry,but i just wont forgive those
that snatch the people,things i cherish most.
once you let me down,
i don't know how to trust you back.
Disapointed is all i feel now.

thanks those that be with me .
no matter rain or shine.
heard my ranting all the time.
true frens is hard to find.
i miss childhood.

I'm back {:
like finally , cause my com break downn .
so many things happen within this few months .
speechless.
And this is my 200th post :D
hahash , i have posted so many post man ._.
i miss my old blog,alot memories there.
i dunno why i delete it , sigh ~
Have been very good girl recently {:
but many unhappy things happen . }:
&i dont like to make ppl disapointed }:
I'm sorry if i make yous so disapointed.
i dont know what to do when yous
get so disapointed with me.
only keep quiet is what i do }:
thanks for cheering me up too {:
make me laugh all this, thanks and sorry }:
yous know who yous {:
Anyways,, can't upload photos .
As i am not using my own pc , as my pc is send to repair ~
damm boring ._.
I am rotting at home ~ first day of rotting ._.
still got one week , then my birthday celebration !
Hehehes, i want present ~ *hint hint* {:
especially HENGQI ! :D

Nothing to says about her.
only one word to describe, "yucks"
i bet she know who is she.

&i just ran away from ....
sigh , takecare everyone .

Old picture,very old.
Happy Valentine day ! {:
Went to meet buddy at boonlay today [;
but in the end i was alone most of the time.
he keep plays with his fren :o
slacked alone till night ,sharon and wenjing came {:
After wenjing went home.
we cabb down to colourcourt .
buddy fren birthday {:
slacked around, see them gamble.
11plus,police came.
i was smoking halfway man , lucky they didn't saw.
tio screen , and went home around 12 .
i am damm broke,i left 5buck only.
i shoulden't have start smoking,sigh }:
i think i will go back to my one period of time
whereby i am really BROKE .
stress uhs stress }:
sharing my problems with ahsen now }:
Not bout money , but bout ***** }:
sighs sighs .
rmb i have something in my wallet.
i dunno what to do with the two things :o !
sighs,not bear to throw , not bear to keep .
tmr going movie,with buddy , sharon , wenjing .
i am really having alots problems now.
damm stress }:
sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh !

Lyrics copy from the song harder then you know .
Only some , sang by escape the fate {:
was bloghopping and found this song meaningful.

You said this could only get better.
There's no rush, 'cause we have each other.
You said this would last forever,
But now i doubt if i was your only lover.

Are we just lost in time?
I wonder if your love's the same
'cause i'm not over you!

Baby, don't talk to me.
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder then you know.

So I'll make the call,and I'll leave you today
I'm gona miss you 'cause i love you baby
Yeah, I'll make the call
I'm leaving today

Leaving always drives me crazy!

euks,
i don't know whats wrong with blogger now.
can't upload photos.
anyway heart breaks arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr ~
lols,break into many many pieces le.
but what past is past {:
i finally took up my courage to do something
i never think of me doing it. }:
Anyway went school today EARLY.
and i mean really early {:
ate breakfast with wenjing.
"stranger" called me ,ahhas .
chatted awhile ,and go have class {:
afterwards lesson was all boring till school ends.
then bad thing happen,quarrel lo ~~~
now become wont contact {:
but anyway what past is past lahs.
i understand the meaning of something.
thus now i only believe that ** ** * hongster {:
not refering to anyone,no offence either.
sighs lahs, i need my girlfriends for valentine !
but seems like everyone have boyf alr oh.
i shall spent with "stranger" then , if can .
Hhahahs . i am bored.
happy birthday to sharon !
was damm tired,so didn't went out last min.
i'm waiting for "stranger" call and my dinner {:

Edited ;/
Boring oh , looking thru my past photos.
so act cute, Laughs.
and also me and him photo /:
Boring boring boring !~
Valentines sucks to the max.
I want many presents for birthday ~ :B
Everything means nothing,if i aint got yous baby }:

Didn't went school today }:
U-turn back home.
Went to polyclinic to get mc.
huiting and co accompany me.
but in the end all ps me alone at there-'- ! {:

after paying , went to meet wenjing at tamah .
slack awhile, and went to sharon house.
meet up with joey and her.
cab to jurongpoint after that.
see sharon shop around,and went to dine in at
ding tai feng {:
was fcuking hungry as didn't eat the whole day.
ate and we went shopping agn .
happen to see sharon friend and co.
slack with them .
and went to eat ding tai feng agn.
they order damm many food.
i awas alr damm full o.o
but still ate down three as they gimme.
slack awhile and went home {:
heard from zoe alot teacher finding me tmr .
sigh , hope is good things instead of bad :B
had quarrel with my mother today.

she fcuking dunno how to help me want -'-
sigh . going school tmr {:
and i wanna get samsung F480 pink for birthday {:
anyone wanna buy for me ? :B

School is so "fun" .
Lesson as usual , but my cramps is killing me }:
Recess feel very hungry , but when i brought my food.
after a few mouth is like damm full.
After school , went to smoke .
then went back to school detention }:
actually i was all alone in one big classroom .
then two more girls come in too {:
4plus , bth alr .
go home without telling mr singh .
Tmr cca }: , and i am finally going. *sians*
Maybe piercing tongue soon :B
but i am scare of pain seeing sharon pain untill like that.
tmr still have school , sians ~~~~~
Valentines where am i going man ? }:

My tears wanted to flow out.
but it didn't..
i dont know what am i thinking.
but i feel very bad right now.
i am like going to change.
a very different person .
when writing my dairy , tear nearly falls out.
sigh,everything goes wrong now }:
its been so long since i have heart to heart talks
with anyone .
whos cares ? i am breaking down agn..

i am starting to feel weird.
Whys everyone can be happy.
i can't.
whys only me,am i the odd one out?
i should be happy.
like how others is .
maybe i need someone to be with me.
maybe i have to change my life agn .
sigh .

Everything means nothing,if i ain't got you.
Went to Boonlay during evening.
meet up with buddy,wen jing and sharon.
slacked awhile and cab down to cck
ate steamboat at auntie house {:
Love her cat.
then cab down to jurongpoint.
meet up with hengqi , joey and hannah {:
hengqi ask us go boonlay.
in the end, she go home -'- !
fcuk herrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr .
Valentine is coming , alone agn .
Waiting for my birthday to come {:
still deciding where to celebrate .
i think its time to move on,
althought i wish i dont have to.
everything is putting to a stop.
and i know friends are happy for me.
sigh.

Went to town today.
meet wenjing at jp first.
walk around.
then mrt to tiong find vernon .
then wenjing and me cab to town .
walk around , wait for sharon .
and my heels is starting to bite my leg.
walked around.
and went to cine with sharon and co.
hongkong cafe for eating {:
then shop around, sharon and huihui then went off .
me and wenjing shop around alone then .
waited for vernon and co to come.
slacked and they accompany us to mrt station.
back to jurong {:
then bus to boonlay find hengqi and joey.
hengqi frens there too {:
went up slack , alot people 0.0
went home around 11plus .
and i went home with 3blister , thansk to my heels !

My cough is killing me..

Fcuking bored.
i hate boxims friends -'- {:
actually dont feel like going school.}
but in the end i went.
meet vanessa at 7,very obvious we are late.
then i feel damm unwell.
Head very dizzy , and when standing wanna faint ~
stand outside office damm long.
bth, and sit down.
mr singh talk to me , then sit outside office
for the whole morning . Sians..
recess , he finally let me off {:
ate and go back class.
stand agn , and dizzyness come }:
keep wanna vomit, -'-
Lifeskills , go counselling .
after school detention .
Rot at office outside for HOURS .
finally can go {:
Home sweet home .

Yesterday damm sick , cant fall asleep.
Slept late .
Woke up late }:
Rush to school , thought of U-turning back home.
But didn't anyways :D
i'm a goody girl :D
needa write lines,but Girlf* help me ! x33
thanks alots alots alots !
he suffer alot cause of writing lines for me :x
Sorry ehs.
after school , get back ez-link .
run away from detention , hehehes :D
smoked , and bus to huiting house.
played ps2 with her , damm scary ohh ~
xiaoping came , and gamble.
Girlf* came too , lose alot }:
super lots }:
nights ppl !
And i hope pig cheer up {:
And someone ~ .. i hope everything is fine.

Will what i decide disapoint my friends agn ?
i'm really afraid to disapoint my friends.
over and over agn they trusted me.
but yet i said another lies.
friends is really very important to me.
they nvr really says its by word or action.
but i can feel, they are disapointed.
am i wrong ? sighs..
true friends is really hard to find,damm hard.